Thousand Leaves 2.0

What sort of things have you in mind when you read the above title? A Successful Failure. There is a website’s titled by a Japanese, who said he borrowed from the Apollo 13. Just thought it’s nice. The impact is strong, but unfortunately, I don’t have a story to tell though. Sigh. That’s one failure.

I took a week off for summer vacations and went to Sendai, my wife’s hometown, with my family.

My last trip to Sendai was 2 years ago, when my boy was born. It’s really been a while. Things of course had changed a lot; it looked more development had taken place around Sendai station, more houses had been built after then in my in-laws neighbourhood, restaurants and megamalls were taking all chances to attract the young ones to spend their money, like anywhere else in the world. It’s lively overall.

But, though only for 5 days I was there, I recalled something I thought about before and it double confirmed my doubt; I cannot ever live there. It’s kind of funny to say so since I have never really lived there for long to know. Previously I did spend about a month there, from Malaysia, I thought I liked it then. As the say goes, being a guest and being the neighbour are two different things.

This trip, I confirmed that I can never feel I belong there. That’s for sure. But, what kind of place that can make me feel “at home” I wonder. To be honest, I have been looking for such a place.

I am not sure if I am thinking too much, looks like the time to spend with my family will not more be any long one from now on has got shorter and shorter. Feel like to have such moment together with the kids more, though I am spending my weekends with them all the time. I thought it’s only a year or two that I don’t have much time with them — on weekdays — , later once I am settled down with my job, I might be able to have more time. Somehow, it doesn’t seem the way. I mean vacations like kids summer holidays. Kids will be busy when schools start. There will be more things for them to get occupied with extra curicullums.

Perhaps it is more important to think about the time to spend with my wife, the one who I will spend the rest of my life with. Time with kids is only when they are still small.